A Giant

Looking through pictures of Zach makes me teary. I'm not his mother but I benefit from what she taught him.

He is the best man I've ever known. I look at these pictures...especially the ones of him with our kids and think, "he's a giant of a man".

He is so good and so kind. I wished that I could have been more of myself for his birthday.

We did spend a lot of quality time together that day but it was meeting with doctors and seeing the ultrasound of Lily-confirming that she had passed away. I was so heartbroken and devastated that I didn't have much to give. He was so sweet and we made the best of it.

Zach has taught me so much about patience, optomism, forgiveness and love. He has also taught our kids much of the same and more through his example. (he is the reason they gather flowers for me when we are hiking-because that is what he does)

I am so, so grateful for Zach. I love laughing, talking-well, doing anything with him. He is my best friend.

He is now officially in his thirties. I just can't imagine. That is forever away for me. I'm just a young buck. :)

I love you Zach. You've been such a strength to me. You'll just never know.-you'll have to take my word for it. :)

Happy 31st Birthday!

The Birthday Girl!

These pictures are so out of order. Sarah turned FOUR! She's growing up so fast and at the same time it feels like she's been a big girl forever.

(the day we couldn't find Lily's heart beat was Sarah's birthday it is a miracle we even did the party.)

All the kids were so excited about the gifts that they did all the loading themselves. We sat and watched as they carried everything to the car, popped the trunk and all. Hilarious to watch.



Per Sarah's request we went to the park, had a picnic with sandwiches and broccoli. We played and danced. I loved her adorable requests.

We all decorated cupcakes together. Sarah wanted pink cupcakes with strawberries on top. While decorating there were grapes on the counter so they were added for variety at the request of the birthday girl.

We are in love with Sarah. There are many things about years past that I miss about her. She has grown up so fast. I do love watching her grow. I love her sassy dance moves and her determination in all she does. I love watching her little mothering, her independence, hearing her laugh and seeing her genuine smile.

Since she turned four she has been so matter of fact and much more animated. She's so fun. She is so Sarah and I do really love that about her.

It will come of no surprise to all that know her that she decided to start year four with a bang...and a hole in her chin. Luckily for all at the party she took a nap that day or there would have been hysterics. :)

Much love to this Birthday Girl! I love and so much enjoy getting to know you. It is a privilege being your mom!