Ya know, it is hard when someone dies. At first I thought, she is with Daddy Pa now and that makes me really happy for her and him. She missed him so much! Then I started thinking about the last time I saw her. It was Christmas day I think....two whole months ago! She lived in Harrisville about 20 minutes from me! I started to feel badly about all the visits I meant to make, cards I meant to write and meals I meant to take, that never happened. I was talking to my mom about it and decided it doesn't do a whole lot of good to think of regrets and let them eat at you. I decided that thinking of those things is okay as long as I allow them to motivate me to be better, for her. Even if I can't visit her, I can visit my Grandma or widows in my ward, I can do better at doing things I want to do for others, etc.
I got to thinking about the kind of life she lived, the person that she was. Seriously, you guys, she was awesome! She would have a Halloween parade every year at her house while she lived here. When she lived in Idaho she would invite the families of the sisters she visit taught to a dinner for Halloween. (She loved that holiday!) She was a fabulous visiting teacher!
There are specific things I can remember that she said to me that are honestly so special! I can see her face when I think of her words! "Isn't having a winter romance so much fun!" She said that to me when Zach and I were dating because we started dating at the end of November. She said to me several times; "I think I fell in love with you before Zach did!". She told me once "ya know, if I want to give someone roses, I just do it, how else will they know I wanted to unless I do it. And besides you never know what will happen and you might not get the chance!" What a good example she was! :) I just love her dearly, she will be greatly missed!
I was thinking yesterday about her funeral and what she would want at it. I decided that what she would want to know is that what she tried to do on earth was important to someone, ya know helped someone in some way. I think she would want to know that what she did on earth was build bridges for those she loved that will help them and those that come after. I think she did just that! She was most definitely a Bridge Builder!
The time I spent with her, I will cherish as a wonderful memory! There might be things I regret not doing but there are things we did and time we spent that mean a lot to me, especially now. She is a special person who filled a great void in my life as my Grandma Moyes was a wonderful friend who I lost a few years before knowing Bam. I was so excited to join Zach's family and love and be loved by his Grandma. She reminded me so much of mine! How blessed I am to have known her! Well, this was long but thanks for reading! I love you Bam!
(above)Bam & Ben on Halloween. Isn't she the cutest Witch with my Little Stinker! (skunk)
(below) Bam & Sarah on Sarah's blessing day. Isn't Bam lovely! I love these pictures of her!
