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I wanted to document. :) Josh is a little ham. I haven't been nearly as good at documenting him as I would have liked.

We had been doing a lot of driving and Josh whose 2 1/2 was pretty done. Several times he said:

Josh: "I'm gonna throw up! Get me out of here!"

on our bathroom mirror Ben (6) wrote

"mom you are the best. you'll get the hang of chess" :)

Josh: "mom, I got a scratch (holding up his shirt).

Me: "how did you get a scratch?

Josh: "a shark scratched me."

Me: "where was the shark?"

Josh: "in the water"

Me: "what water?"

Josh: "the ghost water."

I have ZERO idea where that came from!

on our way home from Grandma and Grandpa's late one night Josh should have totally zonked but he didn't and kept asking:

"mom, where's my bed?" in a totally tired sweet voice. It was adorable.

Sarah got into my mom's makeup when we were there the other day. She put mascara on her eyelids and blush all over her face. She looked pretty cute.

She kept asking everyone if she was cute in a flirty way.

In this last week the kids have all had the croup. The totally share the things I don't want them to! It's sad to see them sick but it is nice too. Nice because they let me hold them and I feel like they need me.

I wonder sometimes if it is like that for Heavenly Father. If He sort of likes it when I'm having a hard time because I come to Him more, I need Him. Just a thought. :)

Being a mom is good. Life has thrown our little family a lot of curve balls lately. We are learning how to get through together and not apart. Some days it is easier than others. :)

Never in all my life have I felt so much love. I know my Heavenly Father knows where I am and what I need. That is a wonderful feeling.

sayings...

I used to save these from the side bar and put them in word. Instead I am going to put them on here. The end.

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I was laying on the couch the other day and Josh walked over and rubbed my back a little and said, "mom, ya dead?". Ben and Sarah came around the corner and Josh said, "Hey, mom's dead".

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While sitting on our pew in sacrament meeting, Josh was playing with some monkeys that link together and singing, "I've got a dream, I've got a dream..." Then turned around and told the people behind us "look at the monkeys! it's on top!" I'm pretty sure a good several rows heard his bit of entertainment.

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The other morning before I got the kids out of bed were sitting in there talking. Sarah started climbing up to the top bunk to visit Ben.

J: "Sarah, don't climb on Ben's bed, it's super hot!"

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At FHE I asked the kids what kinds of things the Prophet has asked us to do.

Sarah replied: "say our prayers, make our beds, get dressed, take Ben to school, eat treats, go to sleep!" -all in one breath and complete excitement!

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Ben was drawing a picture of him playing soccer and drew some fireworks for when he scores a goal!

A Giant

Looking through pictures of Zach makes me teary. I'm not his mother but I benefit from what she taught him.

He is the best man I've ever known. I look at these pictures...especially the ones of him with our kids and think, "he's a giant of a man".

He is so good and so kind. I wished that I could have been more of myself for his birthday.

We did spend a lot of quality time together that day but it was meeting with doctors and seeing the ultrasound of Lily-confirming that she had passed away. I was so heartbroken and devastated that I didn't have much to give. He was so sweet and we made the best of it.

Zach has taught me so much about patience, optomism, forgiveness and love. He has also taught our kids much of the same and more through his example. (he is the reason they gather flowers for me when we are hiking-because that is what he does)

I am so, so grateful for Zach. I love laughing, talking-well, doing anything with him. He is my best friend.

He is now officially in his thirties. I just can't imagine. That is forever away for me. I'm just a young buck. :)

I love you Zach. You've been such a strength to me. You'll just never know.-you'll have to take my word for it. :)

Happy 31st Birthday!

The Birthday Girl!

These pictures are so out of order. Sarah turned FOUR! She's growing up so fast and at the same time it feels like she's been a big girl forever.

(the day we couldn't find Lily's heart beat was Sarah's birthday it is a miracle we even did the party.)

All the kids were so excited about the gifts that they did all the loading themselves. We sat and watched as they carried everything to the car, popped the trunk and all. Hilarious to watch.



Per Sarah's request we went to the park, had a picnic with sandwiches and broccoli. We played and danced. I loved her adorable requests.

We all decorated cupcakes together. Sarah wanted pink cupcakes with strawberries on top. While decorating there were grapes on the counter so they were added for variety at the request of the birthday girl.

We are in love with Sarah. There are many things about years past that I miss about her. She has grown up so fast. I do love watching her grow. I love her sassy dance moves and her determination in all she does. I love watching her little mothering, her independence, hearing her laugh and seeing her genuine smile.

Since she turned four she has been so matter of fact and much more animated. She's so fun. She is so Sarah and I do really love that about her.

It will come of no surprise to all that know her that she decided to start year four with a bang...and a hole in her chin. Luckily for all at the party she took a nap that day or there would have been hysterics. :)

Much love to this Birthday Girl! I love and so much enjoy getting to know you. It is a privilege being your mom!