"Promise me you'll always remember, You are BRAVER than you believe, You are STRONGER than you seem, And you are SMARTER than you think." ~Christopher Robin

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Maybe it's Tuesday's...

My day in a nutshell?
Zach left for work, the kids had play time. I nursed and read the Word...or tried.
I played with the kids while Josh enjoyed the swing...for 5 minutes
I tried to rock him to sleep...I put him in a pack carrier thing because he wasn't sleeping
I fixed lunch at 11 cuz the kids were so exhausted, I was gonna try for an early nap and give Ben one too.
Thank goodness for the carrier because I couldn't have made pb's with one hand.
Read books while josh slept on their floor, in the carrier.
Put ben and sarah down for a nap, i nursed.
ben didn't want a nap, i sent him back in about 3 times. sarah fell asleep dispite.
josh went to sleep, ben came back out and told me sarah was awake. ben wanted someone to play with, so he woke sarah up, how nice.
i went in and loved sarah and told her to go back to sleep and then scolded ben, made him cry and then felt bad. had a lovely conversation with ben until i was just about asleep myself.
put on a movie for ben, went and closed my eyes until sarah called for me.
gave the kids a bath because sarah was poopy and her bum looked awful.
put bubbles in the kitchen sink, gave them utensils and let them play.
did puzzles
filled up water bottles with a small amount of water and prepared for a game of bowling in the living room
played for a few and then nursed and refereed
took a wonderful frozen dinner from the freezer and popped it in the oven, finished nursing.
put on elmo and enjoyed sarah being occupied for too little time
played with josh and sarah
zach saved me and wondered how i do it without help all day
dinner
zach got the kids into bed 5:50!
i nursed and wondered how long I am gonna be in survival mode. am i ever going to be able to do laundry, dishes, sweep, de-clutter, tidy, ever again?
i'll be honest, i do get some things done, but gee, not much, not much at all.
is this just the beginning? am i ever gonna be out of survival mode? does freedom come when they move out? wow! i shed tears a few times today.
forget the nutshell idea, thanks to those who made it to the end. :) i don't blame you if you didn't.
i do love my children and it is a good thing. :)

9 comments:

Shannon Allen said...

Dear Becca-
I LOVED your post. I know exactly how you feel and I promise it does get better. As for all the other stuff- dishes, sweeping, de-cluttering, etc. I've decided it really doesnt matter right now. Right now, I'm being a Mom- trying to teach them all I can- and loving almost every minute of it. (You know...) You are amazing and yes, you can do it. I know you can.

Love ya.

jenica said...

i'm just now coming out of survival mode. it does take awhile, so just be gentle with YOURSELF. you time your days by milk, not hours right now, and it's ok. you're there for your kids when they need you and that is a huge blessing. i know you know this, but sometimes we all need gentle loving reminders. you can do it, you are doing it, and you're one of the kindest and most patent mama's i've ever known.

love you.

jenica said...

i of course meant patient, not patent. ;-D

and really, who wants to be doing dishes right now???

J.Frey said...

Oh Boy Becca! This does not make me want to have a third...Babies are hard regardless, and then to add two more on top of that! I think you are doing a great job! Forget about the little chores, they'll get done eventually!

Good Luck!

Robyn Maughan said...

Oh sweet Becca, I am right there with you. I am just beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. It's a roller coaster ride. I loved reading about your day and can completely relate. Hang in there

kate said...

oh boy! you are the woman becca! i say you're not allowed to try to get anything done for another few months at least, so be good to yourself little momma! you're so good.

Megan said...

Kids are such little challenges!! I'm starting to look forward to getting a year older everyyear because I'm a little bit closer to "freedom" :)

Unknown said...

Skip, you're amazing!! I felt the same way right after Spencer was born. I was so overwhelmed and always felt behind on various things around the house. Then one day, Spencer was a little bigger, and was able to chill a little by himself and watch the older kids, and the older kids weren't trying to kill him, and I got something done!! :) You'll get it figured out, I promise!! It's tough at the beginning though. Remember that Heavenly Father is helping you, and you can always ask your husband for a blessing if it gets to be too much. :) You're super great!! You will survive!!!

Marcie said...

Youre in my prayers Skippy!! You;re an awesome momma. I love you!