Let me just tell ya, the last few days have been CRAZY for me! Not really because of anything going on but because I OFFICIALLY have a three year old. Many of you might know what I am talking about and some of you...just prepare yourselves.
Okay, Ben is not defiant exactly, he is just three. He wants things to be done his way and if I don't read his mind I find out too late that I have done something he was supposed to do or whatever. I am not kidding. "it is my way or the highway" for him!
I thought to myself today if I have to put up with this "walking on egg shells" thing for a whole year I am definitely not going to have any hair left!
So, this afternoon Ben is sitting at the table yelling something at Sarah (teasing, trying to scare her or some other kick) and Sarah is crying because she is way too tired! I am washing pans and I was sick of trying to solve their problems. I started singing a familiar Primary song called "I am a Child of God" to drown out their screaming and crying. (I know, what can I say, I was desperate) What I was trying to do was distract my children and calm the situation. Instead I learned something.
I really was singing quite loud and for those of you that sing, sometimes (at least for me) when you sing loud you are trying to make a point or something. Well, as I was singing this song, it hit me like it was my own plea to my Heavenly Father.
"I am a Child of God" (I am, not just everyone else)
"and He has sent me here" (to this house, with these children, to be their mom)
"Has given me an earthly home with parents kind and dear" (who have set wonderful examples that I can follow and perhaps use in this situation)
"Lead me, guide me, walk beside me,
help me find the way." (I seriously need some help!!)
"Teach me all that I must do" (in this situation, with this 3 year old and sometimes demanding 8 month old)
"to live with Him someday" (there is a reason for all this!)
I really wanted to cry. This was MY prayer! I don't know what it is but everytime I have sung that song since Ben was born I have always thought of him and who he is and now Sarah and who she is. I really honestly was awakend today. I am a Child of God too! Not that I really didn't know that, but I think I needed the reminder.
I can be guided in this situation and there is a way to get through this...I need to seek the inspiration. Boy, even the little boost and reminder of who I am has made me appreciate the opportunity a little more. (that sounds crazy even as I type this. :))
I am so thankful for the very funny ways that my Heavenly Father reminds of things that matter. I know there are many people around me who are more natural at the mom thing than I am and a lot of times it is asking for advice.
Any one?
Thanks for letting me share. Happy Mothering! :)
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I needed to hear that today. I was definitely having one of those days...those days that you just want to leave your crying kids in the kitchen and crawl into your bed and lock the door behind you (am I terrible?). I didn't even try to sing any spiritual songs or anything. I'm just glad the day is done. But thanks for reminding me what I should be thinking about. You're awesome!
amen...my day was long and I also needed the reminder. thank goodness for bedtimes and blogging...
Becca you are just so great. Thanks for sharing that personal moment. I can't imagine not knowing I am a child of God. My song for Luke and keeping me sane is "My Heavenly Father Loves Me" the whenever I hear the song of a bird...or look at the blue blue sky.... it's like his quiet song. Lately though he tells me what song he wants. He definitely is two!!!
You are so sweet. What a great reminder. These kids are SUCH an amazing blessing, and even though it's not always easy, I am SO grateful that I've FINALLY been given the opportunity to be a mom, and I'm trying hard not to take it for granted. Thanks for the post! You are too too too cute!
Becca you are a wonderful mom! It's nice to hear that others have struggles with their children. Sometimes I have to put myself in a time out & say a prayer that I can handle the situation in a manner pleasing unto the Lord. Just know that you are being watched over-I remember when Grandma was around while we were fighting she would sing Love At Home. That's my favorite song to sing when there's contention because it reminds me of her LOVES!!
I have to laugh. I am glad that someone else is in the same boat I am! I feel your pain. Maybe we can get together and let our kids be crazy while we sip on our lemonade and chocolate!
Let's hang in there together! You're awesome and a great mom!
Skippy I feel the exact same way. I never knew that 3 yrs old was so difficult of an age I was under the impression it was 2, wrong! Thank you so much for sharing this sometimes I feel like mine is the only child having a hard with the age.
I love your insight Becca! 3 is a rough year. But it does start to get better, if that helps at all. Hang in there. You are doing fantastic, and if you ever have a moment when you need a break, I'm a phone call away. I would love to talk to you. In fact I think I will call you. When do your kids get you up? hmmm. I can't wait until we are in the same time zone again!
That is a wonderful blog. It made me feel watched over too! And you are ALWAYS welcome to our blog!! I would love it! I love to visit your blog as well!
You are so wonderful, thank you for sharing your insight and experience with us all. I needed to hear it.
I wish I had profound things to share with you, but I don't. I can just tell you, that I got super mad at Emma yesterday, I was so tired of everything, sometimes her insistent talking/nagging/whinning gets to me and I yelled. And I felt horrible and I held her telling her to just "shhh" while i pull myself together (we were getting ready for a nap and I was going to read a story) and I took a couple deep breathes and said "Sorry Emma." She said "It's okay Mommy" and gave me a hug. It is so nice to know that your kids love you and forgive you so freely. It is insight into our Heavenly Father's love too. After I put her down I went and said a little prayer for help and to feel Emma's perfect love and his more often.
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